So I’ve been a bit absent lately and who can blame me when so much has been going on, I am just ashamed its taken me this long to shake myself off and write a new post. I’ve missed a whole month of movie reviews and have neglected posts I wanted to make weeks ago and now here I am sat at home, my job having been closed to the villain of the moment, the Corona Virus. But I don’t want to dwell too much on that.
During these uncertain times I remain to live in hope that one day we shall go back to normality but until then I wish to use this time to live out some of those fantasies I’ve longed for over the last three years. It’s no surprise to many to know that I am a very creative person and when I’m not doing something creative I tend to make myself crazy or depressed from spending too much time in my head and not expressing myself. So now that I’m literally being paid to stay home (I hope I’ve got all this furloughed crap worked out right) I thought this would be the best time to live out my fantasy of being a self employed content creator. Who knows maybe something might come of the work I put in over the next few weeks as we remain on lockdown.
This lightbulb moment comes hand in hand at one of the more important events in my yearly calendar. My birthday. I would be lying if I didn’t say my birthday this year was one of the strangest birthdays I’ve had, all I can say is I’m thankful the release of Disney+ came when it did. I turned 24 at the end of last month and I feel like I’ve been hiding away for the last week and a half since that fateful day. However today I decided to look over some of the old home video footage and photos from when I was younger and I couldn’t believe the journey I have been on over the last, now, 24 years. I hope the journey continues and I grow into more of a woman I hope my future kids will be proud of. In the past I feel like I have been quite obnoxious and at times attention seeking but I hope to continue to grow and prioritise the people in my life just as much as myself.
I would normally use this time, now that spring seems to have finally sprung, to lay out some new season goals however until I can officially go outside without either feeling guilty for leaving my lovely little flat or anxious about catching thou that shall not be the named or my loved ones who are still working catching it, I feel its best to just take things one day at a time. Hopefully sweet freedom will be ours once the next season is here and we can truly live our lives to the fullest and then I may set some goals to strive for. But for now my battle is just with myself and I want to win. Even in self isolation, I will find my lust for life.